scrawls.

scrawls

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24.6.04

there are going to be far too many of us with all the same names, again.

there were many lizes in high school. i think people knew my last name, then. though i was lizzie, to some, for a bit. and then there were many in beloit. and i was Certain Liz, for a while, and that was quite a good time and i enjoyed it. i hope if anyone ever googles Certain Liz, i come up. and then i was M's Liz. only there was a bit of time in between, of course. i found out a month before graduation that people actually knew my last name, but didn't know i guess which liz was connected with that last name, but that ... i don't know. i was confused by it. but somebody said 'oh, you're liz ****** - wow, i've heard of you.' which was so utterly bizarre, and they had known who i was before then and just not known my last name - ahh, it was weird. there were other lizes that were identified mainly by their boyfriends - i suppose, too, that M was singled out from all the other m's as Liz's M. but it was ...surprising. that, first, people knew that there was a liz ****** but didn't know who i was. Very odd.

and it was kind of bad-feminist of me to allow myself to be identified by my boyfriend, yes. but it was - and still is - a minimal issue.

and then little mk found me on friendster - he's all grown up looking - and all the other m's are going to come crawling out of the woodwork, now, i'm absolutely convinced of it. sometimes it felt like there were dozens of them. all very nice, and all loved dearly and separately in their own way, but dozens.

not that it would be a bad thing. but i already have three christies.

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