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4.3.05

drama averted.

so m's (and my) friend j is dating d. and d's friend g has a huge crush on m. which, of course, d is aware of, and made a joke to j about, who then told both m and i. 'cuz j has my back. which, um, rocks my socks. right? so d calls j from the bar with the northgate music festival tonight and g, poor kid, is there, and it's so sort of funny and sad. and she's really quiet around us and now i'm wondering, is she quiet because she hates me, or because she's completely wowed by m, or because she's just quiet? is it us? is she shy? do i even care if j's gf's friend doesn't like me? i thought she was just shy. and i'm not sure if she's enjoying herself, you know? because it's hard to tell.

in seperate, but mildly similar news: when a friend is being a bitch, and gets burned by it, does one tell her she's been a bitch, or does one sympathize? how do you tell someone they're psycho?

and not wildly off-topic, i haven't dated a new person for so long that it seems weird and foreign to me when my friends or other people-i-keep-track-of are Seeing Someone New or aren't with So-and-so-that-you-met-before or say Why do you know someone? and it seems, now, like everyone i know is dating a new person every week. just in comparison. that there are all these whirlwind social lives out there. and i don't really want one. but i know they don't, and they're not, and they're all Looking For, but i don't have the perspective any more to really relate particularly well. Which is weird upon weird upon weird. and how did i get this lucky, anyway? even knowing that all my friends have weird tastes in partner-types. i always had weird taste in partner-types. so ... ? ... i don't know where i'm going with this.

anxiety strikes again! bwahahahaha.

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scrawled @ 17:25