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29.6.04

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last updated: october 20, 2005

Last movie you saw in a theater? the forty year old virgin, which was better than i thought it would be, but i had very low expectations.
What book are you reading now? Mason & Dixon, by thomas pynchon. it's funny.
Worst feeling in the world? knowing that yes, that's the alarm, i have to get up now, bastard
First thing you think upon waking? fuck, do i have to get up?
Favorite fast food place? heberts' cajun shack
Future offsprings' names? i have no idea. i didn't know we'd name the dogs what we did until we met them - "emily" was never on any sort of short list until she had those big brown eyes - and denali, i have no idea where we got that from. Other than the bar. And the whole Alaska - wolf - puppy - thing.
Do you have any pets? Yes, two dogs, of the medium-sized and fuzzy yet poorly defined breed that likes to destroy newspapers. see above.
Were you named after anyone? several aunts and great-aunts, queen elizabeth, saint elizabeth, and possibly others i'm not aware of. The good thing, my parents claim, about naming me something ridiculously common is that everyone thinks you're named after them.
If I had a lot of money I would ... quit my damn job. And buy a yacht.
Do you drive fast? probably.
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? no, too risky - the dogs would think it was for them. But the dogs themselves are on the bed a lot, and they're pretty well fed.
Storms - cool or scary? depends. is my car in danger of getting dents? is my roof in danger of leaking / falling in? Otherwise, cool. (i have a new roof now, so it is in very little danger of falling in.)
What was your first car? my '02 jetta. I love my car. i would never, ever, ever reccomend that anyone i remotely like, however, buy a jetta. Ever.
What car do you drive now? See above. Except when it's not working.
Favorite drink? Biere de Mars from the New Belgium Brewing Co. in Colorado
If I had more time I would... find a place that teaches swing lessons nearby
Do you eat the stems on broccoli? i suppose, why wouldn't i?
What color would you like to dye your hair? meh. maybe a darker brown.
Name all the places you have lived: devine "lived." batavia, ny; binghamton, ny; poughkeepsie, ny; beloit, wi; columbus, oh; college station, tx; bryan, tx
Glass - half empty or half full? mmm. Either. Both. Nobody is allowed to know this one!
Favorite sport to watch? bullfighting. i'm bloodthirsty.
A nice thing about whoever sent this to you. i miss you. But many people have sent me this, so that's a little general.
What is under your bed? dog hair. And probably a dog. Underbed storage boxes containing sheets, blankets, and sweaters that we don't need because we live in freaking texas.
Toilet paper - over or under? why does this matter?
Morning person or night owl? Night owl, but i increasingly have to get up early.
What time did you get up this morning? Seven fifty. Ish.
Over easy, or sunny side up? over easy, but only just.
Favorite place to relax? on the river? maybe? or in the papasan. Or on the deck.
Favorite pie? that raspberry that chef p made in college. mmmm!
What do you miss most? What a depressing fucking question. honestly. who made this shit up? why do you want to know that? why can't we talk about something nice for once? no, no, you want the OCEAN OF FUCKING DESPAIR, do you? well, i'm not telling you about it. but i miss george, too. and billy and emily. and all my grandparents. and my uncle. and my cousin-once-removed and my great-uncle. and kat. and .. see? DEPRESSING FUCKING QUESTION. and i'm not even coming CLOSE to the ocean of fucking despair, here, this is just a little half-ounce of misery.

How is the weather right now? Hot. Damn hot. Remeber that monologue in good morning vietnam?
What color pants are you wearing right now? jeans.
What color is your bathroom? PURPLE.
What are you listening to right now? the fridge is humming
What color of underwear you wearing right now? i think it's blue ... but at work, i'm not going to check
What are you looking forward to? well, tomorrow is friday.
Anything new and exciting? i'm thisclose to being done redoing the poor, sad, ex-mauve-brick fireplace. it is so good that the fireplace will not be mauve brick any more. A mauve brick fireplace is a terrible thing to see. (well, a mauve brick is a terrible thing to see in the first place, and an entire fireplace of mauve bricks is an eyesore and has made several people go blind.)
What was the last thing you ate? Cheerios.
Last person you talked to on the phone? m.
Do you like the person who sent you this? a lot of people have sent me this. I like all the ones i can remember. but there are other people on the internet that have similar things posted, and i'm sure i don't like all of them. i'm picky. Most recently, though, yes.
Who is most likely to respond? people who already have sent me at least one
Who is least likely to respond? all those lovely people who don't send forwards!
Do you want everyone to respond? Ha, don't make me laugh. sure. whatever. that's why i have comments! aha!
Name the person you are sending this to that is the farthest away: ...the internet goes everywhere.

Favorite foods? behold...the power of cheese...
Least favorite foods? Having eaten jellyfish, i really can't reccomend it. I'm also not a fan of the chocolate tacos (chicken mole is just weird, man). Probably wouldn't reccomend rooster testicles to anyone but very seasoned weird eaters. Things i can reccomend, having eaten, include (but are not limited to, and these are just the things i can think of offhand): raw eel, cow brains, octopus, frog legs, alligator, liverwurst, venison jalapeno sausage, buffalo, fish-berry jelly, tofu, and stinky Korean pickled cabbage. Someday i aspire to locate, identify, and eat blood sausage. I will not eat grits because i cannot identify them.
Favorite cuisine? I have recently learned: Don't come between me and my pasta. Don't.
Favorite chip flavor? Sour cream and onion is pretty reliable across brands, i suppose.
Favorite thing? many things are good for many different things. i have a nice fleecy blanket, but it's not very good for, you know, making fresh pasta or something, but then the cappucino machine isn't very portable, and .. oh, i know. the portable camping blow-up mattress :) man, that thing has changed my life
Favorite brand of clothing? seriously, who came up with this question? because, you're weird. in high school i had a poncho that was made in bangladesh. it had no brand. i'm sure it was made by a five-year-old that's probably dead by now and has no fingers left. so that's what we're going with, here.
Favorite type of movie? Sci-fi dystopias. Particularly, noir-y sci-fi dystopias. Matrix, Dark City, Metropolis, 12 Monkeys, Brazil, Blade runner, Mad Max, 28 Days Later, Strange Days, Logan's Run, ...
Favorite sound? what a weird quetion.
Favorite sport to play? um... Ultimate.
Favorite season? fall
Favorite board game? i think really we play ... oh, what is it ... cranium more than anything else. but i've never really liked it. i can whistle well when i know the names of tunes, though.
Favorite magazine? i still really, really miss George. But Playboy and i have almost exactly the same politics - our only point of disagreement is that Hef likes his wimmin a little skinnier than I do. his aren't curvy enough.
Favorite smells? lavender. sandalwood. citrusy undertones. paprika.
Favorite month? october
Favorite day of the week? Saturday. With sunday and thursday doing pretty well too.
Favorite day of the year? see, this is never something i've really thought about - what's the point? i'tll only happen once a year, anyway, and you can't hope for it to come sooner or more often, as you could with, say, a favorite restaurant or something. Ah, hell. let's say.. aah, fuck it.
Favorite holiday? see, this is the same issue as the previous question - and it's all tied up with religious institutions and the way your family celebrates things. i think i liked thanksgiving, this year - m's family is so norman rockwell, and my stuffing turned out, and - Oh, never mind, i liked Boxing day. we had a barbecue.

If you were a crayon what color would you be? oh, brown.
Hugs or Kisses? kisses. Many kisses.
Relationships or One Night Stands? relationships. Relationship.
Buttered, Plain, or Salted Popcorn? now that i think about it, none of that crap. Popcorn is gross and gets stuck in your teeth and reeks like hell ... gimme some chocolate with my movie, and some sour patch kids
Cats or dogs? dogs.
What is your least favorite thing about yourself? i am jack's desperate need for global adoration.
Hair color? Why would i tell you this if you don't already know?
Eye color? Stalker. Ass. Go away.
Do you wear contacts? No.
Scary movies or happy endings? Scary movies with happy endings. J-horror freaks me out, but i'm always left wanting more.
Summer or winter? A nice variety of both.
What is your favorite dessert? That strawberries and caramel and whipped cream thing from the bodega in northgate. Tres leches isn't too bad either. Anything with dairy and fruit is my friend, basically. Or chocolate.
What did you watch last night on TV? We do have a television, but it doesn't really get used much. we turned it on once a week or two ago to see if the cable was working.
Rolling Stones or Beatles? Stones. By just the smallest margin.
Furthest you've been from home? Paris. Maybe Hungary. I'm not sure which is farther in terms of mileage. But in terms of Being Home, texas can still be a pretty long way sometimes.
What did you want to be when you were little? Happy.
What are you now? Yep.
Do you have a special talent? If by "special" you mean "rides the short bus," then no, i don't have a special talent.
What is your ringtone? Beep beep beep. Or, Low rider.

Do you like it when your friends write back? yes. what am i going to say - no?
How much do you love your job (1-10)? 7
What are you doing tonight? having a beer. Dunno.
Can you touch your nose with your tongue? no, but i haven't tried in a while
What color socks are you wearing? black socks, they never get dirty the longer you wear 'em the stronger they get. some times i think i should wash 'em but something inside always tells me not yet.
Coffee, or coffee ice cream? latte. Or basic cuppa coffee with two or three creamers thrown in.
Been in a car crash? some punk rear-ended my jetta. bastard.
How many keys on your key ring? six or seven, i think
Can you juggle? not for very long
Red or white wine? red .. though messina hof makes a suprisingly good rose. that reminds me, i need to tell mike we're having a hottub party at his place again
What is your bedtime? probably after 11:00 or so
What do you do when you're bored? complain
Where do you see yourself in ten years? not in texas
What did you do for your last birthday? we went to WalMart to prepare for the Hurricane that (a) missed us entirely and (b) caused all our grass to die.
Do you carry a donor card? no, i have a donor sticker.
Lifetime goals? to have a happy medium.
Have you got any nicknames? umm, liz? and i'm thebazil (which is mostly, for those of you that aren't very good at keeping up, elizabeth backwards) on the internet, but only because there are other bazils. and i've been zylle and zil and zyl (alts on liz backwards, dumbass) and bluej (i like them, they've got nerve) and aequinox (since my birthday is one) and carina (eta carina is my favorite nebula) and ... oh, but those were ages ago. that's enough answer. Moving on.
What is your middle name? My middle name is "i am very suspicious of the internet and am not, therefore, posting my real middle name on it." It's long, but not hyphenate.

What time is it: 12:28PM
Number of candles that appeared on your last cake: i don't think i've had a cake for a couple of years. Maybe 17 or so. Couldn't say. Really, it's been a while.
When is your anniversary: May.
Been to Africa: No
Loved somebody so much it made you cry: yes
Favorite Movie: i think today i'm going to pick.... big fish.
Favorite Toothpaste: there are differences between toothpastes? Ones that aren't so minty they make my eyes water, maybe.
Favorite Restaurant: dunno. i like sushi.
Favorite Flowers: gerbera daisies. Other daisies. Black-eyed susans. Chrysanthemum types, pretty much.
Favorite candy: milk chocolate. Kit kats. I hate Marzipan, though. i can eat, like, a sliver of Marzipan, because i want to like it, but it's just ... too much. i like eating little slivers of it, but maybe because i'm a masochist. Tiny little slivers.
Favorite Sesame Street Character: Cookie Monster. i met him once. he gave me a chips ahoy.
Disney or Warner Bros.: um. warner bros, i guess. Disney is too much of an adjective - all that baggage ...
Who is the last person you got email from before this: ca.
When was your last hospital visit: ages ago.
Carpet in your room? wall to wall berber. Very boring.
Have you ever been arrested: No. But. You can get anything you want in alice's restaurant. Ba da da da da da da dah...
Have you ever been convicted of a crime: No
Which single store would you choose to max out your credit card in? probably Lowes. seeing as how they have siding and garage doors and kitchen stuff and paint and fixtures and ...
Name the person that you are friends with that is the farthest away: nm, in singapore, i think, or either mp or sb teaching english in japan
Most annoying thing people ask me: when i'm having kids now that i'm married.
Most annoying thing people tell me: how i should be reproducing, already, i'm not getting any younger, now.
Thing you like least about other people: Closed-minded-ness, and yes, i realize i am a hypocrite about this. I am very closed minded about people i consider to be closed minded.
Favorite all time TV show: mmm. Tossup: either the simpsons, or the old-school black-and-white twilight zones. The ones the sci fi channel used to run marathons of on new years' eve.
Last person you went out to dinner with: m.
What you usually have for breakfast: This goes in phases - usually about two months each. i'll have cereal for a while, get bored, advance to bagels, get bored, stop having breakfast for a while, maybe have a fruit period, bits of toast, ...
The one thing you would take to a desert island: a sattelite phone? Oh, is that cheating? Who made these fucking rules?

What type of house do you live in? one that i own. Mostly brick. (Thankfully, not mauve.) Ranch.
How many rings before you answer your phone? Depends. do i know where my phone is? can i find it fast enough before it hits to voicemail?
If you could meet one person, dead or alive, who would it be? mmm. K.
If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? travelling ..um.. food critic.
Would you go bungee jumping? nah, i'd be scared of hitting a bridge suppourt or something, you know? but skydiving, that, i've considered.
Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? i can type with one hand, too. But a little more slowly.
Favorite vacation spot? Any place where there's sand, water, and someone bringing me drinks with umbrellas in them. - got this answer from, i think, SH, and i'm keeping it
Song of the moment? Alice's Restaurant, i guess
Most recently read book? david sedaris. and kurt vonnegut before that.
Do you wish on stars? Not often enough to say 'yes,' really, but i do, so i can't really say 'no.'
What is your favorite lunch meat? i like ruben sandwiches. And fuck you, they're lunchy, what, you want me to mention some oversalted preservative-filled skinny little slice of unsatisfying overprocessed thing? Yes, i know i'm a hypocrite, we've covered that. Next.
What is your birth date? Stalker, i'm not telling you. You keep trying to slip this one in, here.
What was your most memorable birthday? Maybe the one in which i had beer poured on my head, and not by a frat boy, either.
When is your birthday? Come on, now.
What is your most embarrassing CD? Dunno. The Jewel one? Only that's not a ridiculously embarrassing CD, it's the backstory that's red-faced. But i'm not telling you the backstory, because i'm never telling anyone the backstory. Ever. No, not even you, stalker, fuck off.
Favorite CD? does the laptop with a gazillion hours of music on it count, as it is a hard "disc"? No? well, That's my answer anyway, asshat.
Do you have a journal? No, i have a blog. Duhhh.
What do you like best about yourself? The last time i answered this question, it turned out really badly, so i'm not going to answer it this time.
Do you like your handwriting? i like it sometimes. i don't like it so much after half a page of writing - i get sloppier than i really mean to.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? i think it would probably take a while, but yeah, eventually. i'm slow to warm up to people. probably more likely i would hear something about me that i really liked, and decide that i liked me, but never actually speak up.
Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? If i'm wearing those nice tall boots, then probably. Otherwise not. who does?
What shoe size are you? umm, between 8.5 and 10, depending on the shoe. what?
Do you use sarcasm a lot? who would say yes to this question? (a) the person that does not use sarcasm a lot would say no; and (b) the person that, like me, might use rather a fair amount of sarcasm to say the least would also say, sarcastically, no, not at all, why do you ask?
Do you think that you are strong? I am unerodeable. (I am a rock. I am an island.)
What is your favorite ice cream flavor? chocolate
Red or pink? Red. Hands down.
Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds are a girl's best friend. Plus, i'm Marilyn herself for halloween this year. (M is DiMaggio.)

If you could build a house anywhere, where would it be? in a place where it's nice all summer but still snows once in a while. And is near water.
Where do you want to retire to? Any place where there's sand, water, and someone bringing me drinks with umbrellas in them.
What's your favorite article of clothing? ah, i can't decide. Anything black. Or blue. Or gray. Or brown. Those brown corduroy pants, narrow-wale, that died, junior year of college, worn out all the way through - i loved those. the brown narrow-wale corduroy pants i have now aren't quiite as good.
What's the last CD you bought? i think i bought m a jack johnson cd? i don't know. Oh, no, it was ... ahhh ... los straitjackets. Though i did purchase some Gourds on itunes.
What's more important, strength of mind or strength of body? what?!? this is turning into some new age hippy crap now - oz? is that from you?
Favorite kitchen appliance? does my wok count? how about that wood-shop-cheese-grater? ahhh, fine, the rice cooker, then.
What really makes you angry? stupid people.
What instrument would you like to learn to play? i .. um .. i like harmonicas. they're portable. you know?
Do you believe in an afterlife? i don't think so, really, no. Not like you mean it anyway.
Favorite childrens' book? paddington bear rocks my socks. Also, new favorite expression, via KML: rocks my socks.
What's your least favorite household chore? cobweb-removal. And dusting. but really they're the same thing.
If you could have one superpower, what would it be? flight!
If you have a tattoo, what is it? i have a tattoo on my lower back - see a picture here. it is based in hungarian (kalocsa-style) embroidery and has a rose, a helenium, a cornflower, and a thistle, plus some extra little flowers and leaves and such for decoration (which is an integral part of traditional kalocsa embroidery). it is specifically representational of my pre-marriage name: rose for elizabeth, helenium for my first middle name (which i will explain further in person, but not here, stalker), a cornflower for my hungarian ancestry (as opposed to the poppy i was originally thinking of which i've always associated more with hungary but i think hungarians (or at least the ones i know) resent that and associate it with non-politically correct things, but that's just a theory), and a thistle for scotland. it is too a thistle. it is in a hungarian style instead of scottish because (a) i've seen more hungarian traditional decor and we always had it around somewhere, (b) scotland is not celtic you misinformed ass, (c) i'm more connected to the hungarian side of things, as i've met more of that family / been there / like paprika, (d) i couldn't find any distinctive scottish styles of embroidery / painting / traditional decor in general, and (e) i think it's prettier. it is less specifically meaningful that marrying m and changing my name is not changing who I AM. (i am the one that i am and have been. Om, motherfucker.) when i told my mom i got a tattoo and sent her a picture of it she asked where i got the idea for it from and i said 'i googled kalocsa embroidery and found a nice doily and switched out some of the flowers' and she said 'well why couldn't you have it put on a pillow or something' and i said 'because i'm not carrying a pillow with me everywhere' and she just totally didn't get it.
What's in the trunk of your car? a folding camping chair. maybe two. a fuzzy blanket.
Was this annoying? Mildly. Yes.

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