scrawls.

scrawls

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19.5.04

i can't remember - did i tell people i was from wisconsin? or did i say things like 'i lived in WI' or 'i moved here from WI' or ...? 'cuz i certainly would have identified as being From New York for at least until after i liked brats. but, at some point, after liking bratwurst, did i ever say i was actually From Wisconsin? not that it's a bad place to be from, but it's not NY. and if i did,

does it mean, that at at some point, since i now kinda can tolerate some of their music without pulling my hair out,

i am going to tell someone - anyone - ever - that i am from texas? or will i continue to say - as i do now - that 'i live in texas right now' - and people will continue to be confused and say things like But i thought you were from NY or When did you live in wisconsin or What is that about ohio - ? is not wanting to go deaf half the time a point on the path to Being From texas? 'cuz i've got at least two more years to go, here, and that's plenty of time for further evolution (or devolution)... and if it is a step in that direction, am i okay with this? with ... texas? with the fiance being an Aggie, and nobody really knowing what an Aggie is? ('cuz they don't have an identifying mascot, really - there's the collie dog, and the corps-guy, but no, you know, tigers or bears or chiefs - just rednecks and christians, really.)

M. doesn't get this - he works in an international lab full of people from normal places, like eastern Russia, and more non-texans than texans. they have a couple of undergraduates that wash their dishes. i work with mostly texans - mostly aggie texans - and that basic need-to-fit-in thing i've always had and can't get rid of keeps being tenacious. And pernicious. For that matter.

Labels: texas

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